Bus musings

Much like J.D. from Scrubs, or maybe even because I had friends who would sit and watch episodes on DVD for hours on end (I gladly participated!), I have a tendency to narrate my life as it happens around me.

How's that for a run-on sentence?

So today on the bus, the cover of the magazine a woman was reading caught my eye. It was People, about a month old. The cover article was about Jennifer Hudson's weight loss. It got me to thinking about how I felt about it and why some random actresses' body. And about how I hate myself for judging women's bodies. With those thoughts swirling around in my head, it dawned on me to put it in the blog.

This happens a lot, an idea occurs to me on the bus, but by the time I get home it's gone! Maybe I should carry a small notebook in my purse. I just worry about looking like a nutter writing notes about the things going on around me. Either way, I remembered today, so here I go!

I hadn't thought of it until today, but I guess Jennifer Hudson is a bit of a role model for me. Or perhaps was. Or maybe I should say I looked up to her, but I didn't idolize her in any way. Details aside, I'm glad Miss Hudson is happy with her body. In preparing for this post, I read the article in Essence that shows weight loss was a priority from the start. She's clearly achieving that goal. I just kind of...miss the Jennifer, you know? When I did the aforementioned research (alright, I Google searched Jennifer Hudson+whatever so many times I might look a little like a stalker) I started noticing serious strides in her weight loss after her son was born in 2009. So that's about the line I'm drawing when I say pre-weight loss. Eh?

I draw the line at calling Miss Hudson a role mode for myself. I guess I just always felt sort of connected with her. Not in a creepy way! I just thought that if a woman with a body and a face so much like mine can be confident and sexy in the media, maybe there's hope for us all.

No, the world doesn't rest on a celebrity's shoulders in my mind! That type of beauty isn't seen a whole lot in main stream media, so when Jennifer made appearances looking dazzling, it made me hope that more celebrities like her would surface.

Just look at the picture on the right! Shazam, I love the way her face is filled out! I love the little tummy. I love every last little thing about the woman in this picture. She is HOT!

However, I feel stupid for ragging on a woman for losing weight. She wasn't happy in her body so she changed it, which is something I preach about all the time! And on an issue so closely intertwined with health, I look like an asshole saying Miss Hudson should have stayed unhealthy because I want to uphold a certain standard of beauty. I just wish I had a few more women to look up to is all.